I Finally Did It

My heart is still racing, my hands are a sweaty puddle, and my anxiety might be at an all time high. I cannot believe I just posted a picture of myself in my sports bra and workout pants on my instagram and Facebook. There is literally no turning back now, I mean it's on social media, that ish stays on there forever! But to be honest, there has been something so liberating about finally sharing my journey with my friends, family, and strangers, it's as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulder or my stomach in this case...see what I did there? haha I like to think I'm funny. But seriously, I feel like I can breath easier now that I don't have to be "ashamed" of this weight loss journey I have embarked on. When I think about it, I'm not ashamed of the changes I am making, I am more ashamed of the person who I let myself become, engulfed in gluttony. I have been carrying about this feeling of disappointment towards my family, friends, and mostly myself. How could I let myself get this unhealthy? But you know what, I am not going to dwell on the past because that's where it is and that's where it shall stay. I will only focus on the goals I have waiting for me to accomplish because I know that I can do anything with hard work and dedication. My whole life I have had teachers, coaches, parents, mentors push me to certain degrees but they can only push for so long. There is nothing I want more than to be healthy & lose this weight I have been carrying with me for far too long and I think that is why I am seeing results. I finally want this, for myself. I am finally pushing myself to something that is long overdue.

I also just want to take this moment to thank everyone so much for all the outrageous amount of encouragement I have received today from posting my pictures. You will never understand how motivating each and every comment and text is to me. I have been truly blessed with an amazing community of friends and family. I very excited to finally share this journey with you and cannot wait to see where this takes me. Thank you again for being my cheerleaders, my fans, my encouragement. You are all so very loved. I can't do this without you. 

-Allison Rose